Sunday, January 22, 2017

Last Week #72 - Finding Inspiration in Life

I've been writing more this week. So, yay! I've just been feeling it more. I don't know if it's what I've been reading lately (currently I'm reading The Satanic Verses or if it's me just diving deeper for the inspiration, but whatever it is, I'm glad. I'm happy to see the words on the page.

I'm also watching the world. Watching the Women's March in Washington, D.C., throughout the States, here at home, and throughout the world, is inspirational. America is scaring me. I was there on vacation last summer and it was wonderful. However, I wonder if I'd be welcome there now. I wonder if my children would be welcome. I wonder if it would be as easy to visit our family. I wonder how my brown-skinned, Muslim cousins are doing and if they're safe. Yesterday filled me with hope. That they'd be okay. That women around the world can stand together in solidarity.

Though I'm scared about what's happening south of the border, of everything from violence, to the treatment of women, to coal smog drifting north, I have hope. I won't be quiet. I know that there are millions of Americans who won't be silent, and millions of global citizens to support them. The Handmaid's Tale and 1984 are fiction, let's keep them that way.

Wednesday, January 11, 2017

Random #90 - Keeping Quiet

I don't talk a lot about my beliefs on either of my blogs. It pops up here and there, if I'm talking about parenting or wanting the same opportunities for both my daughter and my son. I might have more in the beginning of my blogging life, but I have shied away from it over time. Part of the reason is that I'm a little scared of the Internet. Too many times, I see people being bullied and trolled online. The idea of it fills me with anxiety.

Years ago, when I first joined Twitter, I made what I thought was an innocuous comment about Hemmingway and drinking and writing. Then someone who was a new follower replied to me and we had a brief exchange in which she ended up telling me how awful drinking is. While yes, excessive drinking is bad, I'm a wine lover. I even feel weird admitting that. More and more now, I'm seeing things in the world happening, that is giving me a different kind of anxiety, a fear about what is doing to happen in the world moving forward. Though it still makes me tense, I feel like I should be more vocal. How am I going to handle this, how loud am I going to be moving forward? I don't know. I just don't feel like I can be quiet.

Saturday, January 7, 2017

Last Week #71 - Images In My Head

It's been a busy start to the New Year. I had been feeling out of sorts, but I think I'm feeling a bit better. I think part of that is the holiday craziness is over. I've been able to decompress a bit. Not as much as I'd like though... I think another part of me feeling better is what I've read so far this year. I've already finished two book! The Queen of The Tearling and Can You Keep A Secret, not exactly similar, but both had me hooked. They had plots that kept me engaged and I was emotionally attached to the characters. I've also felt more like blogging, which has been on the decline lately. If I'm reading and blogging, that usually means I'm writing more.

Which brings me to the crux of this post, what did I write last week? Well, actually, not much. A few sentences, a short scene, but the story has been playing in my head. Things I want my MC to do, what I want her to say, how she is going to feel. I feel like the wind is shifting and the story is going to be blown about a bit, but it is also going to make it to the page.

Thursday, January 5, 2017

Quote #70 - TS Eliot

“For last year's words belong to last year's language
And next year's words await another voice.
And to make an end is to make a beginning."

Little Gidding ― T.S. Eliot

Thursday, December 29, 2016

Quote #69 - Alfred Lord Tennyson

Hope smiles from the threshold of the year to come, whispering, 'It will be happier.'

- Alfred Lord Tennyson

Sunday, December 25, 2016

Merry Christmas!

Wishing everyone the best for the holiday season, and hoping for the best in the new year!

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

Random #89 - The Holiday Spirit

All I feel is stress this year. I keep waiting for that happy, fun, exciting feeling to come, but it's missing. I don't know if it's because of the difficult year we have had, the way work at my day job is going, the stress of any number of other things I have been dealing with, but I'm pretty glum. I really don't want to be. I want to enjoy the decorations, the music, the movies and my beautiful children. I want to feel the love and inspiration this time of year can often bring. I keep thinking that if I dig deeper, somehow work harder, it will come. I've even been baking cookies. Gingersnaps and Chocloate Chip Shortbread. They were good and made the house smell Christmas-y. They're all gone though. The children, Hubby and coworkers ate them. I'll have to make more... Of the Gindersnaps at least. Maybe I just need to play more holiday music....

This makes me happy though, in a ridiculous way....

Thursday, December 8, 2016

Quote #68 - Winston Churchill

"We make a living by what we get. We make a life by what we give."
- Winston Churchill